Huhu. :(

Ang dami daming gagawin, nakakainis...

couldn't sleep today, had about 3 hours of sleep and feeling like fainting but i have to go to school because mark's sick and someone has to pass our litera1 papers and someone has to give gox the payment for senior ball and and and...stuff. im so hungry theres no food left and what more? im slowly killing myself. i can't help but cry. really, i feel like an uncared for child. i went downstairs expecting some leftover pizza my sister ordered last night...if not, at least ANY leftover food...there really is none and i feel like my stomach is eating me. and again....the house is so dirty. i have to clean it again. i am beginning to hate this life.

tangina wala talagang pagkain kahit cereal wala na @_@ WALA NA RIN AKONG PERA! WALA NA AKONG PERA! WALA NA AKONG PERA! naiiyak na talaga ako. pero tangina kelangan ko pumasok. hindi nako makatayo sa sobrang sakit ng tian ko at dahil sa sobrang nahihilo nako. ayoko pa naman pa mamatay @_@ buti pa ung character ko sa wow kumakain sia ng apple ako walang makain ><

i just realized im really not progressing. im like, looking for someone to cling to pero parang feeling ko wala akong kasabay. kung hindi pa sinabi sakin ni gox na magapply to graduate hindi siguro ako makakagraduate. ayoko ng feeling ng ako gumagawa lahat pero mukhang magisa na naman ako....>< hindi pa nga ako nakakapagapply sa trabaho and most times kahit may job opportunity hindi ko na napupuntanahan. ano ba nangyayari saken. i need to move on. i need to take care of myself crap.